Gratefull.

Hello again,

If you’re like me your first thought was just like mine. Is that a typo? The answer is NO.

It’s been a while since my last post and I’ve been thinking a lot. Not because I didn’t want to write anymore but because I want what I write to actually be something that matters. I’ve never been into seeking validation through social media of any sort, so when I started this blog it was really always about having an outlet for myself to express what I’m feeling or what I’m going through. So, to bring this back to the topic at hand- I’ve been focusing a lot on being grateful.

I don’t know about you but when something I have been asking for (or in my case praying for) comes to fruition, I feel so overwhelmed that I go through about a hundred emotions at once. There’s always a little bit of doubt that I don’t deserve said thing but at the end of the day I remind myself to be grateful no matter what.

I have now even made it a part of my daily routine that the first thing I do before I even open my eyes is to thank God. I have been through a lot of loss in my life (which I will speak on in a future post) and it has shown me the importance of every day or every fresh start I am given. It’s so easy to wake up and groan a little because of all the things you have to accomplish but all that does is discourage you. Wouldn’t it feel so much better to open your eyes with the realization that this day is a whole new start? That yesterday was yesterday and it no longer affects today. The choice is truly yours. Now, I’m not saying that every day will be perfect because that is not realistic and I try to be realistic because that’s life, shit happens and things go wrong. You might not have any influence over those things but you can decide on how you let these things affect you.

Let me tell you a little story, when I was in the works of getting my new job I had landed the interview and I had it the next day. I wake up the next morning and remembered I had to print a fresh resume because I know it’s key to bring it to the interview but I was out of ink so I had to go to Office Depot to print it and when I get to my car I put the keys in and NOTHING. It won’t turn on; it doesn’t even make the clicking noise to tell me it’s the battery- nada. Initially I freaked out and started to panic and texted all my friends to see what they were doing today. My best bet was to hitch a ride to El Segundo (which is near LAX in case you don’t know) and pay for the gas but no one was free. So, I sat there for a good five minutes before I stopped myself and said out loud “No, this will not stop me.” Next thing I did was get an Uber to Office Depot, and another back to my house. I get ready and look in the mirror before ordering an Uber to El Segundo, I say “You Got This” and head out- I made it thirty minutes early and was hired within two days.

This was just one of many times in my life when God has had my back and I am so grateFULL, I am full of joy, full of love, full of peace, and full of grace. I am not always worthy of all the blessings in my life but I truly am grateful for them all. My point is to always be grateful for all the things that are happening in this season of your life right now, whether it’s good or bad. If it’s good then you can be grateful for having the opportunity to have it in your life, and if it’s bad then you will be grateful for where this storm or situation leads you. Either way, there will always be something you can take from it and learn from it. I’m personally in a really good place, and I’m just blessed so now I’m just trying to enjoy it every day.

xo