Two years later & all I can say is
“Well, this did not go the way I expected”
How many of us have felt this way all of 2020? How many vision board gone unaccomplished? how many trips canceled? memories tarnished, and not to mention loved ones lost.
I think it’s safe to say that when things don’t go according to plan it can really place a damper on our points of view. The great hopes we had for 2020 “being our year” but it’s ok because “we still have 2021” right? Why is it that when something doesn’t work out, we immediately deflect and say next year or tomorrow or next week. I wonder how many people kept those new year resolutions through all of this…
Through this whole situation I have seen so many sides of it – the lay-offs, the stress, the loss, the chaos, the disbelief, the unwatered faith. It truly was so much for us all to take in in such a short span of time I can see why some process faster than others. There are people who thrive in quarantine while others feel isolated and depressed. Personally I liked it and perhaps I can relate it to being more of an introvert who enjoys her time alone and working on bettering myself. However you processed this time, it definitely gave you something to consider in regards to your priorities.
We have all these goals and dreams to accomplish and we are basing it all on the year ahead of us instead of focusing in the now. The present that has been given to us on a tarnished platter but still readily available. How many times did we say “I wish I had more time!” Well, here is your gift of quarantine.
The only problem with this time is that we all were at a loss of what to do with it, and isn’t that usually the case. When we constantly ask for something then finally get it, do you even know what to do with it? I for one got all my cleaning down within the first week so the next few months were filled with trying to find things that really spoke to me and helped fulfill me. Those things included: plants, reading, becoming my own barista.
Now, I know you might think these things are pretty mundane and unimpressive but to me it really helped me grow internally. I had put off any type of studying for years now and I really wanted to push myself and I’m glad I did. Reading has always been a healing thing to me and hobby growing up as well because it helped me escape when I needed it and brought me joy in hard or sad times which I think a lot of us could use more of. Lastly, the plants gave me so much happiness and motivation (aside from cleaner air)! I found this ironic as I always said I was a plant killer and it was so hard for me to keep them alive. Now I’m the girl who plans her days around watering her plants weekly and misting them frequently.
Whatever it is that this quarantine has encouraged you to do, I want you to really press in and realize why these things are important to you. Why did we wait so long to do them until now, or rather who did we prioritize before ourselves? From what I’ve leaned the parties, dates and events can wait. Don’t forget to remember that the main character is you and to keep focusing on you until the focus is you.
Sarita Gisselle 